Where did I do wrong????!!!

In the middle of November, I received a call from KL is about an interview. Wasn't sure is it a bank or not. Just because the address written inside a bank building, I thought it was calling from bank. Was super excited and nervous at that time. This is the start of how I ended up searching job at KL.

It wasn't a call from a bank but a recruit company for the position of recruitment consultant. Have to fight for sales and hit target. It wasn't the job that I want, so I reject the offer. Right after that interview, I went for a trip to Kuantan and Bentong with Matt. Then meet up with Monster and Mong Mong, stay at their house for one and a half day.

After the trip, I did received calls for interview but now I am still jobless. Is it my problem that I wasn't good enough for the company or is it I am the one asking too much for a job as a fresh graduate? Plus I don't know how to explain to my parents (or maybe my relative too, since they also call me and recommend job for me). I was here trying to learn independent but also make them worry about me. I'm really fail being a elder sister and daughter.............................................................................................................

What Do I Want ???

I always because of something didn't go smooth (or should said do it in my way), then I will get upset and feels that the whole day is just a unlucky day for me... Every thing is just going all wrong....... And I feels that I take things too serious, though is just a small thing... What Should I Do With Myself?? What's wrong with me?? I can't help but keeps thinks negative stuff and make my mood even worsen... I want to rely on you but I feels myself getting annoying... So you might feels the same... I should stop my terrible attitude... Who do you thinks you are?? No one should treat you nice and kind... You are not any special person... You are just an ordinary girl... Stop blaming stuff on other people... Stop get so spoiled!!! I really don't know what I had written here... All the bullshit stuff....

I am sorry... v.v

I am sorry that I have exam on that day... I am sorry that I can't see YOU for the last time... Maybe to thinks in another way, is good too... That I will always remember your kind face.... Please forgive me for being unable to be there.....I also don't want to burden my family members.... Just trying to give myself a reason to feels better.... Sorry for being a useless grandchild.... Hope everything went well there.....

I Will Always Remember You In My Heart, My Grandmother...




阿嬤的話
作詞：蕭煌奇　作曲：蕭煌奇　編曲：胡官宏

在細漢的時陣　阮阿嬤對我尚好　甲尚好的物伴攏會留乎我
伊嘛定定帶我去幼稚園看人在七桃
看人在辦公伙兒　看人在覓相找
伊定定跟阮說　叫阮著要好好仔讀冊
嘸通大漢像恁老爸仔這麼狼狽
在彼個時陣　阮攏聽攏嘸

阿嬤　你到底是在講什麼
大漢了後　才知影阿嬤的話
我會甲永遠永遠放塊心肝底

想可一步一步的過去　定定攏會乎人真難忘
時間一分一秒塊過去　在阮的心內定定攏會想到伊

阿嬤你今嘛在叨位　阮在叫你你甘有聽到
阮的認真甲阮的成功你甘有看到　阮在叫你你知影沒
阿嬤你今嘛過的好麼　甘有人塊甲你照顧
希望後世人阮擱會凍來乎你疼　作你永遠的孫仔
擱叫你一聲「阿嬤」

Internship~~

Ah!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I don't have a company for my internship yet!!!! Sigh~~ Thought that father's friend's company will take me in for the internship... But seem like is kinda hard now... Have to find it myself now~~ Is that too late for that??!!! Now UIC is not going to find for me... Hope I will get one soon~~~ :3

Recently love this song~~
Avril Lavigne - What The Hell



You say that I'm messing with your head (yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah)
All 'cause I was making out with your friends (yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah)
Love hurts whether it's right or wrong (yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah)
I can't stop 'cause I'm having too much fun (yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah)

You're on your knees
Begging please
Stay with me
But honestly
I just need to be a little crazy

All my life I've been good but now, woah, I'm thinking what the hell
All I want is to mess around and I don't really care about
If you love me, if you hate me, you can't save me, baby, baby
All my life I've been good but now, whoa, what the hell

What... what... what... What the hell?

So what if I go out on a million dates (yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah)
You never call or listen to me anyway (yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah)
I rather rage than sit around and wait all day (yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah)
Don't get me wrong. I just need some time to play-ay (yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah)

You're on your knees
Begging please
Stay with me
But honestly
I just need to be a little crazy

All my life I've been good but now, I'm thinking what the hell
All I want is to mess around and I don't really care about
If you love me, if you hate me
You can't save me, baby, baby
All my life I've been good but now, whoa, what the hell

La la la la la la la la... Woah... Woah...
La la la la la la la la... Woah... Woah...

You say that I'm messing with your head
Boy, I like messing in your bed
Yeah, I am messing with your head
When I'm messing with you in bed

All my life I've been good but now, I'm thinking what the hell (what the hell)
All I want is to mess around and I don't really care about (I don't care about)
All my life I've been good but now, I'm thinking what the hell
All I want is to mess around and I don't really care about. (if you love me)
If you love me (no), if you hate me (no)
You can't save me, baby, baby (if you love me)
All my life I've been good but now, whoa, what the hell

La la, La la la la la la, La la, La la la la la la la

Frustrated & Worried ~~

Never imagine I will fail my major paper.... And because of that, I have to retake this paper.... When the thought that I might have to extend for another extra semester just for this paper, it make me feel terribly frustrated and worried!!!!!!!!!!! At that times, I feels so lost and down.... I just don't know what to do about it.... Ah!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! But because of this, I realized that lot of people around me worry about me, try to comfort me and help me to ask here and there (To help me solve my problem...)... I am so glad about this... One thing for sure now is that I don't have to extend for another semester, is more than enough for me now... This news bought to me by Happy and sponsor by Mong Mong... I am really happy to have you all as my lovely friends.... Thanks, guys and girls.. ^^ This is really our last semester together.......... Have fun, guys and girls... ^^

Money~~

*A long sigh* Spent too much money already for this semester... I really should plan how to spend my money wisely... So I had decided not going KL for practicum already... Stay at Penang better (I mean to my pocket).... v.v Though I really wish to work at KL... But practicum at KL mean loss more money while work there... At least when I stay at Penang, I can save up cost for transport, food and place to stay... And I really should stop online shopping...Or any big expenses... So I am not going to do the passport... Not going Thailand on the next semester... Have to save up for practicum usage (clothes, and other expenses [not really know what is it... But have to save for that... I will try not to use my parents money])... So sorry, guys... I want to have some good memorial with you all... But financially, I am not allow to do so... Ah!!!!!!!!!!!!! I am such an idiot!!!!!!!!

Holiday Start~~

Finally all the exam had pass... Though not sure how the result will be... But I guess should be okay.. (I thinks... hehe...) Anyway, MY HOLIDAY START NOW!!!!!!!!!!! YAY!!!!!!!!!!! But the first day of my holiday is also the first day of my part-time job start... (Sigh... No money...) So have to work part-time and get some pocket money... Working as an operator... (Most like working as a machine... sigh...) Anyway, I will continue this job for a week... After that, mostly I will just stay at home and watch anime and manga (and chat a lot with YOU... hehe...)... And also sleeping a lot... Want to relax as much as possible... Because after this holiday, there won't be anymore long holiday for me... Have to start practicum and maybe continue to working already......... HAVE TO ENJOY MYSELF AS MUCH AS POSSIBLE DURING THIS HOLIDAY!!! LIN HUI, HAPPY HOLIDAY!!!! ^^